I'm not really sure if I even have this blog set up for anyone else to read. I'm not even sure if I can go back and read it. :-) But that really may not matter at all. During the day, I often have totally random thoughts that I half way wish other people could know and understand. I know I'm not extremely wise. I know my thoughts may prove to be just plain confusing to others. A common phrase my children say is , "Mama, you're so random." All that to say that the primary reason for starting this blog is simply to express my own thoughts. Any benefit or amusement to others would be, as my son used to say, "All gravy". Just writing them down may be all I need to do.
As a speech pathologist in the public schools, I work with some very sweet children. One of the benefits of my job is working with them in small group or individual therapy sessions. Walking them to each therapy session, they immediately start talking about the things that are on their minds. I try to make it a practice to give them a few minutes before each session to "tell me one thing". Sometimes that ends up being several things. I hear the things that make them happy, exciting things, weird dreams...But I also hear that they won't get Christmas presents because their parents don't have any money, that they couldn't sleep because there was too much yelling going on in the living room, that they don't have food because their mom's friend used their grocery money to buy drugs. And they tell me things that I can not and will not write here. These thoughts they share break my heart. They also motivate me to live out a scripture that has been foremost in my mind for years. Whatever I do, I must do wholeheartedly, for the Lord, and not for men. I can't feed them all. I can't make their parents argue quietly when the child is trying to sleep. I can't protect them from the life they were born into. But I can pray that God will use me to love them the way He loves them. I can listen with understanding. I can be compassionate and caring. I can pray that God will use me or someone else to enlighten them to the possibility to escape and overcome their circumstances. And maybe, just maybe, the window of knowledge that I am sharing with you will give you more understanding of the world that is totally foreign to our "churchy" world. Maybe you will pray with me for the children who don't have the privileges and opportunities our children have. Maybe you will be that special person God uses to change their lives.
Colossians 3:22Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
22 Slaves, obey your human masters in everything. Don’t work only while being watched, in order to please men, but work wholeheartedly, fearing the Lord.
